In this moment
Cuddling in your arms
There’s nothing I would change,
Nothing I want more of,
Nothing I want less of.
There is no hurt.
There is no confusion.
Perfect the way I breathe you in
Perfect the way you hold me tight
Perfect the way your face rests against mine
Perfect the way we breathe
And nothing could ever replace
What I feel inside my soul
The way that I know
That I don’t want this to change
That I know that it won’t change
That this, I want until I breathe my last breath.
In your arms
In your embrace
With the beat of your heart I can hear.
Through ups and downs, I still know
There will always be potholes
Always be cracks in the road
Always be traffic jams
In the road of life…
But with or without you,
That is life in a nutshell.
So I choose to share this road with you
Because, in an imperfect world
Full of chaos
Full of pain
Full of drama,
I still get those moments with you
That are perfect.
I used to say “I’m patiently waiting”, but today it hit me- why should I be waiting? Waiting around…. Aka loosing precious time that could be used to develop oneself even more so. Why should I be in hopes for something that I really just like the idea of and really just can’t wait for some things that really aren’t as important as we as humans make it out to be. How can I truly enjoy my single season by LIVING it if I’m waiting? Why wait? Perhaps it’s just me, maybe I am the only one- but I love the ability to make last minute plans, agree to anything I choose, and to stack my appts/plans back to back without ever having to worry about if that will work for someone else. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe God did not intend for me to be alone, He’s got someone for me, but that is not the season that I’m in yet.
I am in the “love thyself first” season- so why should I let this time escape me by waiting for the next season? I also believe that if I spend time waiting & not living, then I’ve put this season on pause which ultimately means that this season will last longer and longer. Maybe I’m wrong, but I don’t want to take any chances. What I do know is past experiences with potential mates- in that, I wasted precious time, I was not in the realization of the blessing that being single is. It only comes but once! I was in a rush to be with someone and was more than willing to settle for 5th best or 2nd best. I’d rather live and let that door open on it’s own and enjoy all my friendships. I’d rather be surprised. I’d rather be in a mental/spiritual state to enjoy the process when it comes- because that too, only comes once. At least for me and my future spouse it will only come once- “for better or worse, in sickness & health….til death do us part”
So I won’t wait, I refuse. I vow to LIVE, to enjoy, to be in joy, to love myself, to pursue my passions, to inhale the beauty that God has placed in my NOW life.
Until next time,
In the rush of life, and the day in age in which we live- society molds our brains to think that at a certain age we should settle. At a certain age we should be married, have a career and so on…. but when the time is right, the time will come. Enjoy your single life while you can, one day that man made just for you will show up- but will you be ready?
I recently experienced some, what one might call, “freaking out” when a man came into my life that seemed to match everything on my list. I wasn’t expecting or looking for it, but neither was I ready ! Hence, the reason why I freaked out. My heart wasn’t ready nor was my body but everything within me wanted to just go for it, just dive in to the relationship. Why? Because I was on the verge of becoming 28 years old and hadn’t been in a relationship for about 4 years. When everyone’s approval of this quickly blossoming relationship shouted louder in my ears than the whisper that was in my spirit- Who’s to say “he” isn’t the one, who’s to say he is? I had to make a difficult decision, face the truth- I wasn’t ready. I still had healing to recieve in my heart, I still needed to be fully complete within myself. Don’t be afraid to put that possibility on hold, if it’s meant to be, it will be. Focus on YOU. You are what’s worth it, put your time and effort into you because you deserve it. That’s my focus, learning me. When you know your worth, you won’t settle for a bargain deal- because only the best, deserve the best!
Don’t settle baby girl!!