Every day you amaze me.
With the inner feelings of why?
Why do you love me?
I am so bad.
I make so many mistakes.
I am always fighting.
When I think I’ve really made you mad, you surprise me.
All that exudes is peace.
Deep inside I can’t imagine how someone like you is actually real.
So I search.
I search for a fault,
for a secret,
a second life,
your mistakes at hiding.
I search because
All I have ever known is
Disappointment and rejection.
I fight to hold these walls up still
Because I somehow think that
Someone could never love me like you do,
because I somehow think that there has to be something wrong.
As the days and months go by,
my fight to uphold this wall
is slowly disintegrating.
Your unwavering love is like a warm bubble bath.
So soothing.
The exact ingredient I need.