Leave

In the dust

It’d be better

But truth revealed is right on schedule

I see it when my eyes are pried open

once blinded now clarity shouts,

Now, a Heart protected in guard and on guard

Show me truths that were laid hidden in deceit

Darkness cannot exist without it

Light be shown, light be at work

Leave me to peace

So, Don’t hold on

Because I can tell you never really wanted this

Depending and dependant

Independence faded and now found

Chrysalis of chaos

Leading the pack

Into a thing of beauty

Oh freedom how does that feel?

I taste you so close

Crushing against my skin like a warm breeze

Emerging

About to stun

Shining bright in armours of strength

Covered in the gentleness of love

One cannot break whose roots are wrapped

Beneath the Living waters, I doth drink thee

My peace, you never fail me

So leave, I’ve already left.

Pulling tricks out of my hat,

The hat I don’t have

Catch em all off guard

Stay wondering, don’t contaminate

Make moves in silence

Stay cryptic if you must

That’s a hat that you create

Something out of nothing

Doubters and distractors, time wasters

Light energy-drainers and containers

Let it be known –

Pajaríto colobrí

Eres tu

Detained, contained, wrapped or tied

You shall not be kept.

Free you shall fly

So, leave, because I already have.

Harshly, On The Rocks

Give them the space to talk-
then maybe, they will talk
(On interrupting others mid sentence)

Allow- to give honor to, to have respectfulness for,
as one would desire to be treated in return.

Then once they are heard, maybe they will listen with ears to understand- rather then to only react.

May the kindness you give to strangers- be the same kindness you practice behind closed doors.

Let not your own household go hungry while you give food to the poor- be wise in your choices.

Grow and water the roots but also, you must weed out what no longer serves,

Realize the truth and the lies- when light is shone on what you swept under the rug.

A mirror is not a mirage, because it shows truth in black and white. Pimples, and imperfection

Drawing in light to reflect back to the light found inside of you- have you seen it yet?

The light, the spark, the fire, the glow?
Find it and follow it, no hold bars.

It may take you to many a place unknown, but the teachers await their student

Break the chains set by others, because only YOU can unlock and release them.

Step into flight, rising in all facets of light, not afraid to be wrong or right,

Yeah. There’s that shine we been looking for!
Like a diamond, yeah, cheesy like that.

“Shine bright like a diamond” 🎶🎵

When hiding your light began in grade school, lying on the spelling Bee just so you wouldn’t be the “best.” 🤦

Forgive yourself for the times when you didn’t choose YOU, when you disrespected your OWN worth.

Accept the truth, but don’t trash what is loyal because you feel undeserving of it.

Deserving you are, it is only you sabotaging you.
So, it’s not too late, change the game.

Clean the game board. New strategy.

Again, it really will be alright- It did before when you thought it wouldn’t be.

Didn’t you end up creating some pretty phenomenal miraculous results?

Ya. You did. Did you celebrate that though?
Because…

You should pat yourself on the back
High five yourself. Give yourself a dance party of one-

Allow Joy to flow, radiate it through the marrow of the bones, and the oxygen pumping through your lungs.

Breathe it in and exhale the bullshit.

Breathing in healing, exhaling what no longer serves. Release, let go, be renewed.

Be in the now, the present, the moment.

It’s new and the new keeps producing, and multiplying.

Do you see it? Have you seen it? Have you stopped to try? Because. . .

The looking glass crew says otherwise 💁‍♀️

If these were mountains to be moved, you’d be a miracle worker.

Diamonds are found hidden in dark places.
Dirty yes. Rough around the edges, sure, but ooohhhh

That shine shine you got going on?
Real you?

You better go Windex that mirror of yours!
Do you need glasses or something?

Because, honey.

You are doing the damn thing, and you need to see YOU clear as motherfucking day.

I SAID IT.
NOW, go on…. You go do you, while respecting others at the same time.

Words are life or death, so what creation you wanna create?

Remember it all comes back around- karma’s a bitch on my side, but she can also kick us to the side.

Love. Be kind. Give space. Patience.

Blessed to be a blessing is a circular event of endless blessing

Catch that vibe, ride it out and float on it.
A love vibe. No condition, no reason.

The OG love of all love forms. That creators vibration-

Be more of what you want to see in the world- so others can begin to create it as well.

You’re a different kind of leader, for a new kind of world.

Stand tall in that- own every part of who you are, lovely and divine.

Bite My Tongue

I know the lies

You say are truths

Intuition tells me otherwise

None the wiser some say

Hmmp.

Have you been a queen of confusion

This entire time?

Maybe a low moment for us

But God turns all lows to his highs

Miracles rest in His hands

I am a walking miracle and protected

Even by you.

I’m thankful to see what I see

Wish I could speak my mind

But I need a ride

So inside my words hide

Boiling up in waters of disgust

Oil that refuses to mix up

I cannot but I must withstand

I must honor

So that it DOES go well

It’s tricky.

It’s full of boundary placing

When the perpetrator believes innocence.

Unbeknownst to you

Narcissistic probably

It’s gotta be your idea

Because of you

But it isn’t always because of you

You’re mean to strangers

Death falling out of your mouth

With each hateful word you speak

No need

It hurts me and it’s not even me

Imagining what hate was said about me

Fell to def ears but the universe heard

I wash my hands clean

No blood left shed to be said

words caused the drive.

Power of life & death within our words

Like a two edged sword it cuts

Creating a new path or tearing it down

Silence of the lambs

A whole nother short story to be had

Silencing, or attempts to.

Bite my tongue I shall, in times right

But trust the voice will still wale

Battling battles only fought in heaven

Speaking only tongues unknown

Direct connection

Creator to creator

Father Creator to daughter creator.

Likeness of him

Create shall i do

Love does bite it’s tongue

When all there’s left to spew

Is pure venom

Relax my child.

You’re protected from even this blood.

You’re protected from even this DNA

Curse breaker don’t be shaken

Stand in the wind

Take the heat

Take the rain

Take the beatings in the air

Roots down deep

You’re still standing

There you go baby girl

Fix your crown

Shine it up and get to work.

Live in love, bite that tongue

The creator fights your fights.

Breathe.

I said what I said

Don’t sit there and wait for it
Ya gotta get up and do something
Don’t ya sit back and think
That you
You ain’t worth it
You’ll see
Diamond in the rough
I know that it’s been tough
It ain’t alright
but you can make it all right
You can take back your power
Take back your energy
Take back your everything
That what the enemy
stole from you mentally
Ayyy
I said
What I said
Breathe it in
Let it out
Let it go
Girl you know
You are the light
You are your tribe
I said that right
Now live it and fly
High
High to
The sky-iy

Living in the light
capturing whats right
You know
it’s gonna be alright
Cuz you got this
you got this
Yeah you can do this
you was born
for this
So let’s go.

Fly away

Can’t walk away

Run away

Crawling would take too long.

Rolling in wheels would too.

Take me away

Let’s fly away

I’ll sit atop your wings

As we soar through turbulence.

When it’s safe to walk,

We land near the sea,

Leaving your footprints in sand.

At first, I was mistaken,

I thought these were my footprints

But I’d forgotten I’m still flying.

Still being held, beneath

Within the shadows your wings.

My feet still haven’t hit the ground

Hitting full force, like you did.

I could do it if i tried,

Oh but to fly..

Remembering a time as a child,

Flying in dreams and no one cared.

No wonder

Because when i told them i was flying

They saw me walking, but it was you,

It was your way of telling me,

In a dream- that,

You were protecting me the entire time

Through all the sexual abuse.

Through all the physical abuse

Through all the mental &emotional too.

The betrayals, down to the bullying

Through EVERYTHING

You were there, kindly, gently, discretely, carrying me on your back.

While I slept away.

You have always been my safe place since day one.

It’s like a forgotten vision

In the form of a cartoon.

Odd, and true.

I know in this time, you are carrying

Me through too.

Flying is what I yearn for,

but I’ve Never stopped

Soaring above it all

Beneath it all

Through it all.

I love you. Thank.you.for. always being

My number 1

The real one

My homie G

My Sweet sweet provider

Protector and healer.

Miracle maker, path shower.

I’ll fly with you any day.

Intuition

Will tell you when someone’s actions are ill-motivated

I saw the look of sadness flush over your face last night

The topic was not personal but you took it that way.

Pretended not to be jealous?

So I downplayed the situation

You’ll only sabotage me when your feeling pretty crappy.

I learned the hard way

The less you know, the less leverage you have.

Gifted with so many things and yet I somehow still manage to make you feel better,

When I left feeling crappier.

Belittling my gifts, how do you know what I can afford and what’s a stretch?

Did I tell you ?

I didn’t

How come a surprise guest was there and I wasn’t told

If you wonder why you know so little , it’s bcuz what you have been given, you’ve disrespected

Saying the very thing my sibling says, yet I go unheard.

They say it, and suddenly it’s the right idea.

I see.

I see what you think I don’t.

You think you’ve got the wool on my eyes,

Honey I’ve been peaking

Your tricks won’t work.

Randomly bringing up triggers like you don’t know.

Right.

Stepping on bruises and calling it an accident.

Anytime I have something to say, suddenly you are busy, Distracted

Why have my words been invalidated since I can remember?

I see you have done this any chance you have.

Suddenly the subject gets changed, when it’s my turn to talk

What is this bull shit?

Why do I see it now, when you’ve played me dirty this way since I was a kid?

Following suit the siblings do, unconsciously but no worries

I learned to stay ahead, move in silence

Without silence, my goals will be caught and sabotaged before their birth.

Watch me. I will speak. And I will not be afraid to do it.

Speaking now in fact

I am in silence now

& you know not of this writing

Moves in silence.

Sometimes our biggest discouragers are the ones who saw US before we did.

Traumas and fear cover it all up, but when I see clearly.

I see.

Although I wish I didn’t witness this ugly truth but it is what it is.

What will I do.

Keep moving silently.

Centimeter by centimeter, mile by mile.

Manifesting life, means shutting anyone out who doesn’t get it.

It’s my vision

It’s my purpose.

I stay quiet

Funny you think I’m broken, crawling still

But I been up a few months now.

Silence.

Feels good in the silence.

You find clarity for life

Peoples truths begin to reveal themselves

If my mouth is a weapon, then allow it to bring

Significance in my silence.

Allow the silence now, to speak for the volumes had

When I arrive, I’ll have already arrived.

Because intuition found me in my silence

That’s right, the silence that all wish I had stayed under.

When I made that first move in silence, it should have showed you.

That’s ok.

I don’t mind, bcuz I know my come up will put you to shame

Intuition

Yo siempre voy a saber.

My Motto.

And I do end up knowing.

I only keep it in silence until it’s too late for you to sabotage the idea.

When the idea has long been completed and tasked

You will continue to barely find out.

Why

Bcuz I see what I wasn’t meant to see

Now I see that which cannot be unseen.

I was shown the truth, so that it might set me free

God will always protect me, and protect me, He has.

Having seen, you think I didn’t pray for it to be revealed?

Pray boo pray.

God showed me

And I see.

God is my ever present help in need,

When I’m blinded by clouds,

He will be my flashlight.

Verbalize it, don’t share it.

I wish I could tell you-

I’m used to this.

I don’t try to remember,

I try to forget

Yet still,

Flashes before me in physical form

Or repeated action in present time.

But you are you and I am me.

I love you regardless, that changes nothing.

I’d rather not know what hasn’t been said.

It’s no longer significant in this new season.

I am done judging what was and what still is.

It isn’t your purpose to break generational curses.

It is mine.

For this reason, I stand against constant indifference from my own.

From which I came from.

Sometimes it feels like you think there’s a battle of competition,

How is my dessert always, just not good?

Is it because you didn’t make it?

I love your food, but why can’t I do something good too?

It’d be your win too, I am your DNA.

Why is it that you were too busy for the wedding of your firstborn?

Why instead of congratulations, I heard back ground noise from another birdie.

(They chirp REAL loud)

What I heard was “what? Married?”

As if I beat you to it?

Or as if you never thought I’d be married?

Regardless, why weren’t you happy for me?

I eloped so I wouldn’t be heartbroken by who didn’t show.

I don’t understand a lot of things,

But I will say I can see clearer everyday.

New years eve I attempted to begin something new with you

As confirmation, you canceled

Too tired to sit in a car with us.

What is going on?

I don’t want to know.

It’s all your choice and I have one goal

Be happy.

It means withdraw from the public-share-bucket up for grabs

For anyone to Pictionary an episode up

Of MY life.

Meant for big things, you know, but, no support like someone who is.

Let me put the proof in the bucket with some action

Nay sayers revealed,

you’re one and it’s ok.

My fuel, Gas me up

Thank you for the role you play in this life.

I’m moving forward anyway

I know indifference is because I’m the curse breaker.

I got a mission.

No one expects great things to rise from the bed of ashes they helped create.

Wise as an owl, rising in silence, moves not known until it’s history.

Always known as an oversharer,

They never saw that one coming.

A secret move caused heaven to react

A curse broken and it was too late to be hindered.

Words of doubt and fear cast upon me.

I’m the light that came from the flames,

Strength inside my marrow

Past built

It’s okay to expect nothing from me,

That’s a great setting for an epic reveal.

Things I’ll never share, but it’s verbalized so I am free

No longer having power over me

It’s in the light now.

Chains broken in silence move heaven and earth.

That’s my assignment.

If I could choose

If I could choose, it’d be you.

If I could choose, you’d be my miracle

Wishful thinking or am I just trying to be optimistic

If you were here, you’d save me from a lot.

Changing things because of you and for you

You’d be a force into growth

Because whether I do or I don’t, you are still fiercely growing.

If I want you, which I do, I would need to grow too.

Which would put an end to somethings

Which you would be God’s hand

Little green eyes

Can I imagine what you’d look like?

I know your name already

That you would shine all facets of God’s light

Living, breathing testimony

Result of generational curses broken.

You are my reward. My sweet joyous child

Filled with all the most brilliant ideas and an excitement for life.

Evidence of God’s mighty hand

That’s who you are.

Even if you aren’t inside me quite yet.

I will get through this storm just fine

I have wings covering me, blood sanctifying

I denied you for so long

But I accept you now.

You are allowed to be here

Whether now or in the future.

I’m still speaking to your core

Your spirit. You.

I love you now

I will love you when I see you

And when I know for sure you are finally here.

You will be something special.

That gusto

With your curly richly shiny curls

Long eyelashes and a great big smile

Dimples too. You sweet thing you.

I can see almost as if you’re in front of me.

Until then, I will have faith.

Faith that what’s inside, is you.

Faith that if it isn’t you, that what’s inside,

WILL be safely removed

So that you may make it your temporary home.

For now, to be continued

Let it be known, if I could choose,

It’d totally be you.

Pause

Settle me in sand and sea

To see the seashells and feel the breeze

Running through my hair

Brushing past my face

Breathing in deeply, the salty breeze

So refreshing, so soothing

Close my eyes, envisioning light

Bright white

Protected

Bubble of light about my being

Sun shining down on me as the Son does

Warmth of peace

All is well, while chaos scatters itself

No fear,

remnants only graduate upon completion.

Mind chatter, loud and clear

Counted are your tears in a bottle

In darkness, your screams are heard

But to embrace a shadow

Self.

Embrace wholly, fully entirely

All versions, all pasts

You are one in the same

Rejoice you are complete

Ready to live fully in what was only a child’s dream

Firmly stanced,

Armored in love,

Crowned in light.

Mighty warrior, sweet, beautiful soul

Fly like your inner child

Those wings belong to you

Release.

Rejoice.

Rest.

All is well, my dear.

All is well.

2021

The rollover year

What is owed to me

Through all of my lifetimes

All quantum worlds

Past, present and future.

I call it in, I call it down.

Into my window

Into my procession.

All monetary debt owed to me

All assistance owed to me

All thanks owed to me

All.

2021 is the year what is owed is rolled over to me.

I am diligent and my focus is sharp

Daily, hour by hour, I prepare myself

This is the year I walk into the power within me.

Always been there, eons upon eons

Finally remember, finally awake again

From the long, long sleepy beauty sleep,

I have awakened

How protected I am.

I cannot be touched

The daughter of a king

Standing grounded in unison with the song of creation

All of creation stands in agreement

We shall overcome

For our battles are NOT AGAINST humans

But against the spiritual world.

I will love all, as that is my purpose

Bringing light to all in these times

Lightworker.

Working the light. Removing the veil

Revealing TRUTH.

2021 is full of manifestation and protection,

A lightworkers time has just begun,

Rest in the Creators protection

Move fearlessly into your purpose.

Shine brightly.