Life got too chaotic
Tried to keep up
Lost something that I knew God had already closed the door to
Still, I was shook to my core
Ignorance was my friend
Then, like clockwork
Panic set in
This time, it was historical
Like an earthquake no one ever expects
I was caught in a trap that I couldn’t get out of
its’ aftershocks sent me spiraling down
Loss for want,
Loss for focus,
Loss for ability.
Fear crept in, whispering
“what if it happens again?”
The very thought flooded my eyes with more tears
But deep down I knew I had help,
I knew that I had God’s Favor and Grace
It was just up to me to force myself back up
out of the rubble,
Out of fear’s underground shelter
I did what I’ve known best through the years
Like a fighter in the ring who took a hard blow
I slowly got back up
Each day gets easier,
I have begun to pick up the pieces
Today, I’m winning
Self-care, my professors said
First and foremost, is ME.
This is self-care.
Prayer is my self-care
Perhaps saving me from my old self
Awakening new avenues within that never used to exist before
But it’s time
It’s the season
Today I awaken a new level of focus
Awakened levels and avenues, and thought processes
Keys to who I am today to who I will be tomorrow
Self-care they said.
Self-care will keep the anxiety at bay
Success in hand.
Today I’m Winning.